I enjoyed my own nature to the fullest and we all know that therein lies happiness, although, to soothe one another mutually, we occasionally pretend to condemn such joys as selfishness…
I lived consequently without any other continuity than that, from day to day, of I, I, I….Thus I progressed on the surface of life, in the realm of words as it were, never in reality. All those books barely read, those friends barely loved, those cities barely visited…I went through the gestures out of boredom or absent-mindedness. Then came human beings; they wanted to cling but there was nothing to cling to, and that was unfortunate. For them. As for me, I forgot. I never remembered anything but myself.

Albert Camus, “The Fall”

The life, joys, pains, all the events and incidents of a creator’s life were nothing compared to his adventures with language. An artistic achievement is always more than the mere chronicle of a writer’s life. Often it is also his existence, remoulded and transcended by his use of language.

Olivier Todd, Introduction from Albert Camus’, “The Fall.”

I love life - that’s my real weakness. I love it so much that I am incapable of imagining what is not life. Such avidity has something plebeian about it, don’t you think? Aristocracy cannot imagine itself without a little distance surrounding itself and its own life. One dies if necessary, one breaks rather than bending. But I bend, because I continue to love myself.

Albert Camus, “The Fall”

(this rather resonates with a line from a bright eyes song that goes, and never trust a heart that’s so bent it can’t break.) 

What can one do, what should we do with our soul if God does not exist? And indeed if He doesn’t, does anything go? If God disappears from our view of life, on what do we build this moral code? Does any code hold? ……Talking about God does not imply that one is with or near God….Paradise and Hell, to Camus, are here on this Earth.

Olivier Todd, Introduction from Albert Camus’, "The Fall"

I had to recover my memory. By gradual degrees I saw more clearly, I learned a little of what I knew. Until then I had always been aided by an extraordinary ability to forget. I used to forget everything beginning with my resolutions. Fundamentally, nothing mattered. War, suicide, love, poverty got my attention, of course, when circumstances forced me, but a courteous, superficial attention. At times, I would pretend to get excited about some cause foreign to my daily life. But basically, I didn’t take part in it, except, of course, when my freedom was thwarted. How can I express it? Everything slid off - yes, just rolled off me.

Albert Camus, “The Fall”

No one is happy relatively- for a longer or shorter time. You’re happy or you’re not. That’s all. And death has nothing to do with it- death is an accident of happiness, in that case….
Before, I wanted to be happy, to do what I had to be done, to settle down somewhere I really wanted to be, for instance. But sentimental anticipation is always wrong. We have to live the way it’s easiest for us to live- not forcing ourselves. I suppose it sounds a little cynical, but it’s also the point of view you have to take to survive.

Albert Camus, “A Happy Death.”

No one is happy relatively- for a longer or shorter time. You’re happy or you’re not. That’s all. And death has nothing to do with it- death is an accident of happiness, in that case….
Before, I wanted to be happy, to do what I had to be done, to settle down somewhere I really wanted to be, for instance. But sentimental anticipation is always wrong. We have to live the way it’s easiest for us to live- not forcing ourselves. I suppose it sounds a little cynical, but it’s also the point of view you have to take to survive.

Albert Camus, “A Happy Death.”

You make the mistake of thinking you have to choose, that you have to do what you want, that there are conditions for happiness. What matters- all that matters, really- is the will to happiness, a kind of enormous, ever-present consciousness. The rest- is nothing but excuses. A canvas waiting for our embroideries. What matters to me is a certain quality of happiness. I can only find it in a certain struggle with its opposite- a stubborn and violent struggle.

Albert Camus, “A Happy Death”

Just as there is a moment when the artist must stop, when the sculpture must be left as it is, the painting untouched- just as a determination not to know serves the maker more than all the resources of clairvoyance- so there must be a minimum of ignorance in order to perfect a life in happiness. Those who lack such a thing must set about acquiring it; intelligence must be earned.

Albert Camus, “A Happy Death.”

Never give up, Catherine. You have so much inside you, and the noblest sense of happiness of all. Don’t just wait for a man to come along. That’s the mistake so many women make. Find your happiness in yourself.

Albert Camus, “A Happy Death”